Emotional exlax

You all know exlax. I'll just leave it at that. 

If you don't know it, google's got your back. 

Anyways, some metaphorical (As my uncle Jason would say) emotional exlax poured into me today and I just broke down. 

For about half an hour. 

And it was much needed. 

Everything that I've been seeing and thinking about on this trip just kept flooding in and then something else came up and I just couldn't hold in my emotions anymore. 

And I don't know how to explain the feeling of how emotionally exhausting it is to see kids that are not being helped and not having power or resources to do anything about it. 

A bunch of us on the team were talking about this type of thing on the way to Bomani today. Someone said: "I never fully understood the need here. Pictures can only do so much." 

And I cannot agree more. 

Just like so many things, certain situations just cannot be understood by those who have not seen/experienced it. 

So I'm trying my best to describe what I see and experience. 

But there's so much. 

This is Naomi. 

She is in Standard (Grade) 3, and is ten years old. 

She has a total of ten brothers and sisters, and is one of two siblings that goes to Bomani for schooling. 

She stayed by me the whole time I first met her and also today and I love her to death. 

I had the kids write me letters today about what they want to be when they grow up and their name, grade, etc. But also, they all put that I was their bestfriend and they loved me:) I got a little leaky reading those a few minutes ago. 

And I feel I'm going to be leaky for a long time in the best coming days when I have to say goodbye to these kids for real. 

I don't know how I'm going to process it all. 

Anyways, the kids absolutely adored my sunglasses and camera and took some pictures all day and played around with my camera. 

A few minutes before we had to leave Bomani, the girls all stood around and sang songs to me. 

And it made me leaky again.

Her eyes just say so much. 

This was another little sweetheart that was with me all day. <3

They are all just so joyful.

Sometimes we all need a little emotional exlax. 

To keep pushing forward,

and do what we are meant to.